xD-Boys-Who understands them-xD

Boys. Who understands them?
Haven't we all had that situation where we think we've found the fairy tale prince we were always told about as kids, and that we dreamed of getting ever since? He comes when you least expect it, and can make you laugh when you're in a gosh awful mood. Plus, he's not completely hopeless looking. A year later, and you wish you had never met him. It turns out he cannot take life seriously, or a girl's feelings for that matter. He finds it hilarious when he tells everyone what she privately texted him just because she said something that would make them laugh, and therefore make them love him. Oh, and all the nice things he says? Turns out he says them to everyone. No how many times you tell yourself he's not worth it though, you still find him just plain irresistible.
I don't understand why it takes so much longer for guys to grow up than girls. But I think to avoid having my heart smashed because I expect too much out of someone, I might just try to avoid guys my age all together for the rest of high school. There's this strange little thought I have been having lately. See, when Ben told me he did not have the same feelings for me as I did for him, I'm not going to lie, I went insane for a few months. It's hard to explain, there was just a short period of time there when I'd get insanely jealous and paranoid when I'd see him flirting with everyone but me. Now, I've changed drastically. I don't need a boy to make my life complete anymore, but don't we all fear rejection a little? If I was to get into a bad relationship, I fear that I would be the type that would try to make him love me, and when he would not, I'd fall apart. That is not what I want in life at all. So until I can get over this fear of rejection, and until boys my age grow up, I'm going to try my absolute hardest to avoid falling for anyone, and stick to irrational crushes on guys I know I have no chance with. :)
My favorite bad boyfriend song: Dance in the Dark-Lady Gaga (I've seriously been listening to this on repeat for the past 2 weeks. It's AMAZING!)